Diary #7: I am absolutely terrified

They say a bad dress rehearsal predicts a good opening night. This was the Donald Trump of dress rehearsals. Actress Kate Pendry keeps a diary from rehearsals and preparations for America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot.

Foto: Erik Berg

Dag 1-3 av Kate Pendrys dagboknotater kan leses her, dag 4-7 her, dag 8-9 her, dag 10-12 herdag 13-16 herdag 17-20 her.

DAYS 21-23: Days of Whine and Hubris.
Very hard to write a rehearsal journal in the last three days before an opening night. Actors get very wrapped up in what they’re doing, a kind of narcissistic terror. Your brain’s on overdrive, and you’re same-time seeking to let go, to trust: yourself, the play, the work that’s been done. Do the work, then forget it all and run on your glorious subconscious, aqua-planing. At least, that’s the aim. But if it was as easy as just connecting those dots everyone would make great art, all the time. There are so many variables. Like an alchemical experiment: You might turn base metal into gold, or you might blow off your eyebrows. There are no guarantees.

Monday and Tuesday are spent working through scenes in the morning and running the show in the afternoon. It’s a rythmical way of working, quite, routine, concentrated. Things go wrong, notes are given and taken, nothing critical, things get fixed, forgotten lines are committed to memory - small gems are discovered, it feels like it’s going the right way, we talk about wanting an audience, needing a response.

Wednesday we work through a few last transitions, everything on track. We invite a few folk to the dress rehearsal - and at the last minute hear there will be a journalist in the house. My heart sinks and paranoia sets in, then a lot of energy used to bat away that destructive beast,: doubt and worry about all that can go wrong and how the wrongs might  be committed to print and (worse) the internet  for all time.

They say a bad dress rehearsal predicts a good opening night. This was the Donald Trump of dress rehearsals. So it’s looking good.

The company is lovely; kind folk, courteous, supportive. Still - one goes home alone and thinks about the tiny details and the big picture. Nothing to be done. Buck up, back on the horse, tomorrow is another day.

I am absolutely terrified.

I am absolutely terrified.

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Diary #1: Sixth draft

«I don't know if they are conscious or accidental geniuses». Actress Kate Pendry keeps a diary from rehearsals and preparations for America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot.

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Diary #2: Alan is in the hospital

«Alan is in the hospital now, for observation.» Actress Kate Pendry keeps a diary from rehearsals and preparations for America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot.

Foto: Erik Berg
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Diary #3: Brangelina and peanut butter candy

«We discuss whether Brangelina is now a redundant concept because of the split ...» Actress Kate Pendry keeps a diary from rehearsals and preparations for America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot.

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Diary #4: It’s snowing now

"Sometimes when I act opposite her I forget I’m a co-character and find myself thinking Bloody hell, she’s good." Actress Kate Pendry keeps a diary from rehearsals and preparations for America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot.

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Diary #5: An horrific shock

Our sound fellow Brynjar walked past, putting batteries into a mic-pac. Saw I was crying. Said kindly, “It does feel like doomsday ... “. Actress Kate Pendry keeps a diary from rehearsals and preparations for America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot.

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Diary #6: It’s like being in a film

I was hit with the shock of Trump’s election, again and again. I’m glad we’re making a thing of beauty. It seems like the right response. Actress Kate Pendry keeps a diary from rehearsals and preparations for America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot.

America Ep. 2 - Psychopatriot, 17.–20. november 2016

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